Special
written by Jason
Cut deep in my veins
all the way to my soul
relieve this pain and sadness
my one and only goal.
searing hot and bleeding
redness stains us all
blood and tears together mingle
inseparable to us now.
watch the pain releasing
crimson life force in a cup
i envy those other children
released from the agony
consuming each and every one.
creator, the one who chooses
between life and death,
how could you pass me up
trapped and alone
what makes me so different
than the little ones now safe in your arms?
did you forget me?
i ache for that embrace
up there surrounded by your chosen
can you feel me, who you choose not to see?
i want to feel that warmth
once upon a time i knew
what did i do so wrong
to miss that boat to you
in between the tears and bleeding
i construct a mighty vessel
to take me home to you.
will your arms be open waiting
to welcome me to the fold
can you forgive one as wretched as i.
they say you comfort the weary
bring the lost lamb home once more
dear god it is i
that little black sheep
lost and empty and aching
where is your mighty hand
to comfort and bring me back to you?
i must be ever so evil
to escape your light divine.
