indigos journal

Please God oh save me
From the madness in my head
Self-imposed crisis
Everything you & I both said
My world black for eternity
And yet I let you in

Little wandering eyes
Taking in all there is to see
In a world so foreign
Yet belonging to me.
I grope for words to explain
All there is to behold
In one minute second.

Oh precious child
So tender and so mild
How young and innocent you are
More beautiful than the brightest star.
What could have caused the pain
The mighty betrayal brang
From one whose job is to protect and serve
Is this what you really deserve?
For years you’ve taken it all
Believing that was your call
Come to me now ye little one
The wounding is all done.
You were not in the wrong
Your truth is a much gentler song
It is time for you to rest
For you’ve done your mighty best
Your courage through the years
Is greater than any other
It will conquer all those fears.

I know the fear you bear
From the years of mighty threats
Screaming through time
Warning you of the penalty to be faced
For breaking the silence
Carried on for generations.
Confusion
Many voices I hear.
Arguing.
Many pros and cons
For telling the story
Many have buried inside.
Afraid for safety,
It seems so much easier
To carry the cold, black secrets
Than to risk obliteration.
But isn’t the result one and the same
To speak or not to speak?
I will not be quieted-
You have stolen all I have
But you cannot kill my soul
Try as you might.
If not for me,
It is for the shivering, frightened ones
Who will undoubtedly follow.