so much….so much
as the title says….so much. don’t know where to start. still having trouble writing. but right now don’t know what else to do….so forcing ourselves to do it.
our friend cassidy went in for surgery last week. right before she went in she found out she was being evicted. unable to move much because of surgery, she couldn’t do the work to move out. we spent several days running errands for her and packing her and moving her. plus dealing with lots of strangers.
on tuesday we just reached a breaking point with it all. couldn’t cope with it. we know she was mad….we feel horrible. we don’t want to be a flake…not dependable…but we just couldn’t do it anymore.
now we have one of her cats cause she doesn’t have a place to live. our cat is freaking out…the stress and lack of her medication is causing more seizures. i have no way to get her medication…and poor sparky (her cat) is just so frightened and confused. she is still hiding behind the toilet.
and then today cassidy went back to the doctor to get staples/stitches out. she found out that she has cancer.
we feel so upset…depressed…helpless…there is nothing we can do. nothing we can do to help the cats, to ease their suffering. nothing we can do to help cassidy (with any of what she is going through)
the kids are so distraught….they don’t want to lose cassidy…but they are certain they will now.
what to do…what to do….
we hate feeling this way.
