lessening
anxiety level seems to be somewhat better today. got much accomplished yesterday, even though we didn’t make it to therapy. deb helped us out a whole lot….got laundry done (miracle of miracles—that hasn’t happened in oh so long) and errands for cassidy done. even used the phone! made an appt. for robbie kitty to see the vet.
still struggling with trying to call and get an appointment for our teeth. major panic on that front.
some discouragement….is this all life is meant to be for us? it seems like things will never be “normal” Programming tells us that filthing disgusting things like us don’t deserve a normal life.
You are NEITHER disgusting nor filthy!!! and you DESERVE whatever normal means to you (definitions do vary :> somewhat person to person after all)
As long as you are willing to keep plugging along and trying to have the best life you can, that is what you will achieve. The programmers were the ones who are wrong to make you believe you had no worth. You are very important to me and I’m betting most anybody who is able read this.
P.S. Glad I could help w/the laundry situation,
because You ARE worthy of help and LOVE and whatever normal means to you!!!!!!!
Comment by deb — April 13, 2005 @ 11:45 pm
you know, we get really discouraged when we can’t do little things like make a fucking bowl of cereal to eat, or just anything. so i really hear you. but you deserve a wonderful life, and just because you can’t take a shower or cook or clean doesn’t lessen that at all. what is it i wanted to say? just something about how life does suck but then it gets better and that’s a process that at time can be independent of whether we can keep up with the ADL stuff. if that made any sense.
Comment by myriad — April 14, 2005 @ 11:37 am