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things are going along ok. still working on the stuff with the Seekers, but we are not in trauma or anything. they spent some time out recently, and we are dealing with the programming triggered by that. feelings of shame, etc.
it feels like the process we are going through in dealing with all that is going to bring about monumental changes. i don’t know where we will end up. that is scary. but the Wise Ones keep telling us to hold on. that things will be ok. that we will make it through. i am trying to trust in that.
the other night we watched Conspiracy Theory. up till this point, we had never been able to get through that movie. within the first couple of minutes we always get triggered. i guess we have grown, because this time we were able to move beyond getting triggered to see the movie. it’s kinda creepy how accurate it is in some respects. we have also grown in that we don’t fear triggers like we used to.
we got a huge envelope in the mail from social security. they are reviewing our disability. we are really scared about that. we hate it!
our therapist is going out of town. we will miss three sessions. we are having major mixed feelings about that.
of course, that would describe our whole life right now. (mixed feelings.)