relief? really?
i mean, sure, the pain is not as bad. the pain we sometimes have is different…a throbbing instead of an intense stabbing. but we feel so horrible. extreme nausea. shakiness. not fully a sore thoat, but it does not feel normal. and our breathing has been worse. i am not sure what is going on. but we hate feeling icky. we hate not knowing why we feel icky. is this related to the tooth? i’m not sure. i don’t even know what to do to help us feel better.
me hates it lots. what we really wants is someone to hold us an take care of us. us kids. but we dont gots that. and we not sposed to want it cause we can never gets a mommy. but we tired. tired of fight. tired of feeling bad. just want someone outside us to be in charge for while. take care of us an hold us.
we mostly sleep today cause then we dont feel the ickies.
i wish I was there so I could wrap my arms around you and hold you,rock you for hours without end.
You deserve to be held,comforted and nursed thru any dis comfort/dis ease that attacks you. I don’t think it is wrong to want that mother-nurturing in any way. It may be harder to find or accept it now because the people who should have given you that all these years failed you miserably!!!! I cannot emphazize that enough,
THEY FAILED YOU!
But you did nothing to deserve that failing! You are so amazing! I don’t know how you are full of so much love despite how badly you’ve been treated. It certainly brings out what little maternal instinct I have.
I am soooo sorry you are still feeling so icky.
And it’s extra hard when you aren’t sure of the reason or at least have any ideas what is causing the problem so you can try to change things.
If only there was some way for me to be better aware of when you need that nurturance, because, I am so much wanting to be able to give it to you.
I love you (all) very much. I think you are strong, wonderful, smart,(wise too), beautiful, giving, talented in many ways, and skilled(especially w/kitties, I’m going to start calling you the cat whisperer soon).
I hope that you can see that sometimes, cuz i see it often.
In the meantime, i send hugs galore,and enough kisses to kill off any germs, or whatever is causing you the ickies .
Much, much love,
I will try and call/e-mail tomorrow, to check in w/you, KKKKKK????
Comment by deb — January 29, 2006 @ 10:52 pm
it might be our cold. )o: sorry about that. it’s our therapist’s fault for seeing us when she was still contagious…
Comment by myriad — January 30, 2006 @ 6:39 am