intense therapy
we had a very intense therapy today. lots of memory crap.
it’s kinda weird…we have been writing some memories here in our journal…but it terrifies us when we think of entering this one in. we’ve been having it every night this last week…every time we try to sleep. and, of course, it was even more intense in therapy because we worked on it instead of trying to get away from it.
i wish we could write about it. we don’t want to be controlled by fear; by the old rules those bastards taught us. but here we are. too scared to write them.
even in this, it’s ok to cut yourselves some slack. when you can write it, that will be a victory; but you’re also taking care of yourselves by not forcing something through terror, and hurting yourselves/people inside in the process.
hell, we can almost never talk about our memories, even in notyou sometimes.
and other really pompous things. we are sorry it has been plaguing you. we are sorry we can’t write more eloquently. we will be here to listen when/if you can talk about it.
Comment by myriad — February 3, 2006 @ 8:47 pm
i’m sorry you’re having bad memories. they are really hard. i hate them. i’m sorry you are scared. i hear you.
melie
Comment by melie of jaga — February 8, 2006 @ 1:25 am