later that night…and a little more info
the kid who wrote earlier called our therapist. we talked with her for a little bit. we were able to feel connected with her again, and thus not feel all alone. we also learned more about what is going on.
apparantly drew is not the only new one around. there is a little who is scared and anxious and lost. she brought a new memory with her. just thinking about the bit of memory we know makes us start to go away…we are definitely not ready to talk about it yet. we did, however, tell our therapist the bit we know.
between the deep unhappiness and aloneness of drew and the fear and panic and aloneness of this little one, we were really in a bad spot. there seems to be some distance from it right now, but i know it isn’t gone…whenever i pause in doing stuff it comes right back.
nobody knows for sure where she (the little one) is. nobody can see her. drew is the only one who even recognizes her energy. and even he has never seen her…just felt the energy. we are trying to send her messages. i don’t know if they are reaching her.
in therapy tuesday our therapist asked us to see what was going on inside. everything was darker…overcast. and everyone and everything inside was moving slower than things on the outside. (this is unusual) things seem somewhat brighter now, but still somewhat overcast. but in the far off distance we can see some sun barely peaking through the clouds. it’s nice to see even that little bit of sun and hope. things are moving faster than they were, but still not up to the same pace as outside the body.
i suppose i should try and sleep. i have much to do tomorrow…phone calls i am dreading. i have to call the municipial court and take care of a ticket that someone got after they stole our scooter license plate…we have a police report, (which was hard enough to accomplish!!!) but we still need to deal with the courts and the vehicle registration people. the court thing HAS to be done tomorrow. we are really really scared about anything to do with police and courts.
now there’s a topic for journal writing…
