night is being day
i am glad that we have broken through whatever barrier was keeping us from writing. we really miss it when we can’t write.
things are not staying all neat how they are suppossed to…the night is leaking into the day. the feelings and memories and anxiety and struggles that usually happen only at night are here right now in the day time.
so far today we have mostly slept. some it that has been the physical exhaustion, and some has been the emotional stuff. we are feeling lost and unsure of what to do with ourself. nothing sounds good, and everything seems like it will take too much energy.
someone inside is very strongly saying that we should just quit therapy because it isn’t doing us any good anyway.
someone else wants us to go “home” to salt lake.
i hate it when these messages come up…sometimes they can get so hard to fight.
fight as you might you must fight fight fight!!! I lost the rest.
Comment by wandering cat — September 5, 2006 @ 12:18 am
we’re really glad you’re writing again too. you and us seem to be in very similar places lately. we’re glad you’re still here, still in therapy. we wouldn’t want to lose you.
(of course someone says we should run back there together… sigh).
Comment by myriad — September 5, 2006 @ 9:46 am