fade
we could not go to therapy with myriad like we usually do on thursdays. everything is just to much. so we have mostly played wow and read and tried not to self harm. but then we didn’t self harm cause we don’t want to hurt. but we feel so much badness and like we need to hurt ourself. like we need to be punished.
we are voiceless right now. and we feel little. but also so so big. we take up too much space. we want to be little enough so that we can curl up and disappear. i think that is way we are voiceless….so that we are less visible. don’t attract any attention.
got to go to group. people are here.
