early morning letter to therapist
just sent this to our therapist. thought we’d share it cause i don’t think we can write anymore.
we tried not taking the seroquel last night. it is 4:30 am now. we can’t sleep. so anxious. but the voices are really loud screaming that we shouldn’t trust you and we shouldn’t tell you anyway because we are just a big melodramatic hypochondriac. and we don’t know whose voice to trust or what to do. our perspectives are not good right now. the die voices are really loud and so are the cut voices. we can see the cutting. and the voices yell at me for telling you all this. but we don’t know what to do because we are so crazy crazy.
it is hard not to listen to the voices that want us to do stuff. cause they make the feelings be there, so we feel the things they say. so the things make sense.
can so relate right now. last night they told us and told us how we needed to die and we couldn’t not believe them. we just couldn’t.
Comment by myriad — January 17, 2007 @ 1:20 pm
just wanted to say that we’re sorry you’re having such a horrible time right now. it sounds like things are super hard right now. we’re struggling too in different ways right now. we think it is good that you shared this note in your journal. we’ve been having a hard time writing and stuff and so we can imagine how hard it was to write that here. hold on… yous are worth it a lot!
us
Comment by JAGA — January 18, 2007 @ 5:09 pm