indigos journal

“stolen” from Uncommon Misconceptions, a friend’s blog.

Feel free to steal and do it too if ya want:

1. What time do you get up in the mornings?

morning? what’s that? we normally get up between 10am and noon.

2. Diamonds or pearls?
we are so not glitzy like that. we do love rocks though…

3. What was the last movie you saw at the theater?

Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian

4. What are your favorite TV shows?
House, CSI, Law & Order SVU, Without a Trace, Frasier, Star Trek TNG, Star Trek Voyager, Heroes, Jeremiah, Weeds, Farscape, Dead Like Me, we could go on forever….

5. What do you usually have for breakfast?
nothing. or special k with strawberries. (that’s a new thing)

6. What is your middle name?
we do not have one.

7. What food do you dislike?
too long of a list to go into…we are very picky eaters. we love garlic beef from this local thai place, though.

8. What is your favorite singer/music group?
Indigo Girls, Brandi Carlile, Dar Williams, Cris Williamson, Peter Paul & Mary, Weird Al…again could go on. but the first three are our favorite.

9. What kind of car do you drive?
my Yamaha Riva Razz Scooter, my friend’s Toyota Prius, seattle metro transit, my feet

10. Favorite sandwich?
turkey and swiss

11. What characteristics do you despise?
passive-aggressiveness, refusal to look at one’s own stuff

12. Favorite item of clothing?
meh. it’s all the same.

13. If you could go anywhere in the world, on vacation, where would you go?

Australia

14. Favorite brand of clothing?
mostly don’t care, as long as it’s cheap. i do like king size direct, though.

15. Where would you retire to?
too far away to think of. probably right here…we love seattle.

16. What was your most recent memorable birthday?
the kids’ birthday on june 13th.

17. Favorite sport to watch?
WNBA…Seattle Storm

18. Do you have piercings? Where?
unfortunately not…our body rejects them…

19. Can you play an instrument?
not really. unless you count my voice as an instrument.

20. When is your birthday?
body’s birthday is in november. kids’ birthday is in june.

21. Are you a morning person or a night person?
night

22. What is your shoe size?
nine/ten

23. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share with us?
goin to miami, baby!

24. What did you want to be when you were little?
Dead. or a therapist. if i happened to survive.

25. What is your favorite candy?
meh…trying to stay away from that shit.

26. What is your favorite flower?
a purple flower we don’t know the name of

27. What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to?
july 11th–miami departure

28. What is your full name?
totally not sayin that in the interwebs

29. What are you listening to right now?
some crap on late night tv…haven’t turned it off yet.

30. What was the last thing you ate?
spicy chili

31. Do you wish on stars?
occasionally

32. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
we already are a crayon…indigo

33. How is the weather right now?
hot as fucking hell.

34. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
cassidy.

35. Favorite soft drink?
mr. pibb.

36. Favorite restaurant?
old country buffet.

37. Hair color?
Dark brown/white streaks.

38 What was your favorite toy as a child?
don’t remember.

40. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate in every way possible.

41. Coffee or Tea?
neither.

42. Do you have any pets?
kitty.

43. The last time you cried?
a couple of days ago.

44. What is under your bed?
nothing.

45. What did you do last night?
watched tv and slept

46. What are you afraid of?
people being mad at us. the bad people coming back and getting us.

47. Salty or Sweet?
Sweet.

48. How many keys on your key ring?
About five or six.

49. How many years at your current job?
disabled.

50. Favorite day of the week?
wednesdays!

51. How many towns have you lived in?
depends on your definition of “town” and your definition of “lived in”.

52. How tall are you?
5′6″.

53. How much do you weigh?
317 at last weighing. trying to lose. will get weighed at doctor tomorrow.

54. Do you have a tattoo? If, so, where?
yes–a pink triangle with a rainbow ribbon on our left shoulder. we want a bunch more. just need the money for them.

55. Are you afraid of the dark?
yes. have to have a light on to sleep

the past many days we have been sick with some kind of virus. so we’ve had to stay home resting and sleeping. it’s a catch-22 situation, really. we need to stay home to get better. but anytime we stay home, especially longer than one day, we spiral downwards.

we know this…but the knowledge doesn’t help us fight the thoughts and feelings that come up when it happens.

and, of course, it couldn’t happen at a better time. it being summer solstice and all.

so i guess we just need to get this out there…we are having a hard time and feel so very alone.

i have, perhaps, noticed a pattern.  the despairing ones and “wanna die” ones are louder when i allow us to overload a day and get too tired.

it may seem like a “well, duh!” too people, but i am just connecting it.

we were totally feeling that way tonight after getting home from this day: swimming, dog sitting, grocery store, food place, chorus.  too, too much!  when am i going to learn that?

luckily talking on the phone with myriads seemed to helped a little bit.  we are still so tired and exhausted and overwhelmed and upset that we don’t know how we can possibly prepare for therapy tomorrow.

argh.

at least tomorrow we only have therapy and dog sitting.  that is, if we can keep from adding more to it.

so, we met this new multiple online and we’ve been reading their blog.  good stuff.

http://uncommonmisconceptions.blogspot.com/

there are other flashes, but we are too tired to write them.  they are specific sex acts and they flash by really really fast.

we feel like we are really bad.

some of our flickr contacts have been posting a lot of pictures of utah.  it has been bringing up a lot.

oh–fyi–the first bit is a memory w/ the green men.  the second is about different johns we were rented to.  the third is, obviously, with our mother.  the last is practically every situation we were in.

bleah.  we feel bad.