we are so sad. i don’t know why.
we do know that the hidden children (aka the autistics) were having relives of electric shock stuff with the green men.
we also know that we really want a mommy. and it’s really sad cause we’re never gonna have one.
we also know that this is the longest we’ve ever gone without being in a relationship. and sometimes we feel so fat and ugly and unlovable that we won’t ever have a relationship or even playmates again.
we also know that we are scared scared scared about miami but also excited. it will be the first time we’ve left the pacific northwest since we came here and found safety. and it may be stupid, but we’re afraid that if we leave, even for a little while, that we will lose all of the safety and support and people. and it may be stupid, but we’re afraid that if we leave this pocket of safety, that the bad people will know and will get us.
that is what we know right now.
except that it is time to go get ready for swimming. yay swimming!