indigos journal

• Definitely think this new drug is helping already…and it's only been a couple of days #
• Sleep, the fickle bitch, is taunting me again tonight. #
• FYI: just because I am a scooter and you are a car, does not mean you get more than your half of the road. #
• Feel lonely and touch deprived and heart broken and what is the point? #
• Fighting to keep the wolves from doing something insanely stupid #
• best ever 3.jpg http://t.co/V4wA3MV #
• I think our er therapy appt yesterday helped…but still crashing every night around 7 #
• Smurfs movie made us laugh. #
• Pretty heavy work happening in therapy. Hope it helps. Still no word on hospital. #
• So possibility of going to hospital on monday #
• Anxious as fuck. Lots of mixed feelings. And so much loss. #
• I don't know why we thought we could make this work…this stupid idea to go to the hospital… #
• So…no call back like she said she would. Back to the waiting game. I hate this. Give me hope and yank it away. #

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• My life is not a life…it is all so pointless #
• Ok…so the downside of this new case manager thing…they kinda take this shit seriously and we are literally on our way inpatient #
• This social worker bitch is so cold & dripping disdain…& they don't have a fucking bed here so want to transfer who knows where #
• Hate medical professionals that treat psych people like shit. Most have been like that so far #
• I love you guys… #
• We are quite the sight…naked butt hanging out in the breeze. At least we got to keep our phone #
• So bitch gets even bitchier and there are no beds at any hospitals around here. Sigh. #
• And thus concludes today's jolly adventures on the uss waste-of-time. Please disembark carefully. #
• So tired…just want to give up #
• Intake went well #
• Now if the dc intake people would just call… #
• To do: mash up oreos. Pour into flower pot. Eat in public. #
• OMG I love my new psych arnp! This place is so going to help my life… #
• So sucks…finally get closer to hospital happening, only to learn there is an $1100 copay. Sigh… #
• Got an application in to a place that can help with our energy bills, including the debt. Hope we get it. #
• 9-10 on the scale…and feel guilty for feeling so bad #
• Despite driving recklessly, made it home ok. Alone for now #
• For better or for worse, alone has ended #
• We aren't feeling any better this morning, but we are not alone #
• Spent a bunch of time at the plant place at volunteer park taking pictures. It helped #
• Started new drug last night…quarter of a dose…and still feeling groggy today. Hopefully this will wear off. #
• Damning myself for our neediness #
• And for letting people down #

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• Generic fml status. Plus, we are thinking about dumping our therapist. #
• "I'm gonna get it right this time…" #
• freaks.jpg http://twitpic.com/63mrmj #
• Feel backed into a corner by a rabid animal, with no way out… #
• new photos posted on my flickr http://t.co/DxcVOpb #
• Still feeling backed into a corner…but also trapped without my last failsafe by visitors today #
• Oops…should have said "because of visitors today" #
• Tummy hurts #
• Wave upon wave. When will the sea calm? Will it ever? #
• Emergency session with kathy. Now waiting outside arena for storm game #
• IMG00033-20110813-1823.jpg http://t.co/hJSQwjJ #

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• they just finished the install of my air conditioner. So much quieter and cooler! #
• The joys of multiplicity…there is a junk of flesh missing from my left heel…and I don't know how it happened… #
• Feeling pretty fucking low. What is the point? #
• Therapist thinks maybe we should go to the special hospital #
• Scared and disoriented…keep not knowing where we are #
• I don't know if what we're contemplating is the right thing #
• Hate how everything is always so much worse at night. #
• Don't feel any clearer or whatever after therapy. Was hoping it would help. Hospital is looking more likely. #
• Fear is a natural reaction to moving closer to the truth. –Pema Chodron #
• Bleach spilled everywhere…ugh! Can't breath #
• No news on the hospital…I don't think is gonna happen any time soon. I can't keep going… #
• Head is hurting really badly. Hope it won't stop us from sleeping. #
• Overheard just now: "no one's excited about a hair. That's all I'm sayin." #

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