tomorrow we go to chorus retreat. gonna be fun. but we still gotta pack. we bein picked up real early on friday so we gotta pack tonight. but there not gonna be much time cause group is tonight. but no one let us think bout it before now, much less pack.
we also plannin for gala. gotta get plane ticket. that overwhelming.
been lots of new info bout the Warrior System. they been workin real hard. but havin the new info been meaning we can not write. they are worried the info they give will get out. so we no write. that makes us sad, but we understand. but sometimes we wanna write anyway. even if just a little.
we not been able to go out of the house, unless with someone else in their car. that is not good. we keep missin appointments. and we not get our antibiotics as soon as we should. or our xray. we dont know why we cant go out. we talk to kathy bout it today. that and our bad dream. we have this bad dream over and over. it not long or complicated. we are in a room, usually a bathroom, and we can’t get the door to stay closed. wont stay shut. it scares us cause we really need it to be shut. we dont want anyone comin in. but it just wont stay closed. kinda silly that makes us scared. but there you are.
we gotta gets breakfast and get ready.
we not write in while. we been finding out lots new info bout the unknown system. they been real worried bout the wrong people finding out bout stuff so they not been wanting us to write. they lettin me now they just say be careful what we say. no info bout who they are or what they do. what we can say is that there is lots of movement inside. lots and lots. so we not sure what to write bout. but we wanted to try cause we miss writin.
we are glad the snow is passed. it was pretty to watch, but we hated being stuck inside so long. we especially hated running out of some foods.
we not feeling good. either a cold or a sinus fection. good thing we see dr. robbie tomorrow. we are sad cause it the last time we see her for while. she goin on mini sabbatical. we will miss her. we are scared bout seein in fill in. we lost our opportunity to meet her fill in cause we couldnt get there cause of snow. we try to member that dr. robbie wouldnt give us someone who wasnt nice. but we still scared.
this is short entry bout nothin. tryin to be ok with that.
another rushed morning
we managed to get a full 4 hours sleep before needing to wake up. it was a rough night…nerve hypersensitivity coupled with severe anxiety. when we were able to finally lie down, we had to play music in order to distract ourselves enough to get to sleep. and once we were able to get to sleep, we had very bad nightmares. very sleepy right now. how to stay awake through all our stuff today?
this afternoon we are going with a couple of friends to check out the 24 hour gym within walking distance of us. the possibility of being able to do circuit training and swim is exciting. also maybe trying some classes like zumba. if the gym looks like it might work, we will be getting a 7 day free trial, and if that’s the case, we hope to use it today. we’re hoping that it will help our physical issues…especially our hip and back pain.
once again we need to run. our ride will be here any second.
another short one
frustrated that we couldn’t get up earlier…we have so much to do today.
so something happened yesterday or the day before (we can’t remember) that has erased all the distance and clarity…leaving us with urges and needs to do something that will essentially be very bad for us. we are trying to resist…but it is seriously messing with our head. we wish they would just leave us alone.
we are quickly running out of time…trying not to stress about it, as we know this will only make things worse. in any case, we have to go for now so that we are able to get ready in time.
short. not sweet.
stupid stupid inspections today. we hope they dont pick us. with help we got recycle and trash out but that bout it. we tryin to not worry too much.
we are very tired. we got sleep. and we dont remember any bad dreams. we did wake up lots of times. just so tired and sleepy. cant think very good.
nobody sayin nothin to write down. so we gonna go and we write nother time.